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Rob Dixon's avatar

Beautiful, Tommy. Deeply touched and humbled by your insights. Thorough, kind, thoughtful, dogmatically complete. A mystery laid bare by the sheer weight of your heart’s purpose. So humbly proud to call you my son. Love Dad

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Tommy Dixon's avatar

Thanks Dad (:

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A. A. Kostas's avatar

I could sense you getting closer and closer to this point as I followed your writing since your time in Thailand... but glad that you've made a faith decision brother. It only gets harder, more demanding, more awful, more wonderful from here. And we are shoulder to shoulder as we walk.

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Tommy Dixon's avatar

Thanks brother. In a funny way, I was writing about God before I believed. Thomas Merton talked about that, how his writing and his faith were intertwined, how he wrote himself into belief, in a way. Appreciate your words here & the encouragement (:

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delaney simone's avatar

well said

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Outliers's avatar

Perhaps the best article I have ever read on Substack. I had a similar experience to you, I also learned personally how Jesus provides long term peace that I could never find on my own. I learned a lot from reading William Lane Craig as well.

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Tommy Dixon's avatar

Thank you Christian (: beautiful way of putting it. Appreciate you reading & the kind words here.

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Azark's avatar

This made me cry (in a reflective way). I have so much to think about. I had never found the way I was trying to live to be compatible with Christainity, but many of my stubborn aversions have just been wiped away. I wonder where I will go from here. Thank you.

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Tommy Dixon's avatar

Thank you man, your words and time here mean a lot. It's a long road. Always an email away if you want to chat through things.

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Abby's avatar

Wow, Tommy!!! Wow!!!

Just easing into your essay, barely beyond a couple of paragraphs,

makes my heart weep and soar all at the same time.

There is so much to say to form even a half decent response, yet l'm also at a loss for words. Nothing I compose would feel good enough or thorough enough or deep enough to address all you have given us here. Given us of yourself. Letting us in. Into your mind. Your heart. Your soul. What a raw, sincere and transparent voice you speak with. Extremely well written, Tommy. Then again, we knew it would be, didn't we.

I am so incredibly proud of you for your determination to follow your heart, for your acknowledgement and acceptance of your faith in God. And especially, Tommy, your courage to be open to all who know you, about where this journey has brought you. Your write with such deliberate purpose that your readers simply cannot miss or deny your intended testimony throughout. I will echo Dad's words here, I am incredibly grateful, humbled and so privileged to call you my son. I truly hope you are just as proud of yourself as I am of you.

Love Always, Mum XOX

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Tommy Dixon's avatar

Thanks Mum (:

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zoe's avatar

congratulations on your baptism, tommy! i've always liked your writing and this piece was an exceptional and raw one to read. i pray your faith in the Lord grows as you continue walking with him, and i thank you for your testimony :")

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Tommy Dixon's avatar

Thank you Zoe! Appreciate you reading & your kind words here (:

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Bennett Jacobs's avatar

This hit me at just the right time. Stopped me in my tracks and read it all in one sitting. Thank you for sharing it, Tommy!

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Tommy Dixon's avatar

Thank you Bennett, deeply appreciate your time and encouragement here man.

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Alexis's avatar

I love many of your writings, but this is my absolute favorite one 💜.

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Tommy Dixon's avatar

Thank you Alexis (: your time & care here means a lot

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Steven Foster's avatar

Captivated as I read this. Took copious notes for the next time we can have a conversation. Appreciate you sharing this intimate story and contributing to the books about him that will overflow the world. John 23:25

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Tommy Dixon's avatar

Thank you Steven (: You were another pivotal figure behind the scenes of this story. Deeply appreciate your time and thoughts here. Can't wait to connect again.

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James Bailey's avatar

You are a remarkable human Tommy, before, and more so with the Lord flowing within you. An astonishing piece of writing…and I’m only halfway through it. I love you, pal.

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Tommy Dixon's avatar

Thank you James, your words and support sink deep in my heart.

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Amira Okelly's avatar

This is an amazing piece my friend

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Tommy Dixon's avatar

Thank you Amira (:

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Zoe Richardson's avatar

I will read this many times. I don't believe it accident that it appeared on my feed when it did. Thank you for your courage and vulnerability. Best piece I've ever read on Substack.

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Tommy Dixon's avatar

Thank you Zoe, I really appreciate your time and encouragement here. Means a lot.

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Samuel So's avatar

One of the most comprehensive explorations of faith I've read in recent memory... In it I see someone who has grappled and wrestled with the full weight of crushing doubt and emptiness, and found his burden lifted by the infinite mercy and love of Christ

I have shared your writing with others who are struggling with their faith, and I am sure that through it many will see the true beauty and light of the Gospel

May the Lord use you and shape you for His glory, until we see Him face to face

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Tommy Dixon's avatar

Thank you Samuel, for reading and for such a beautiful reflection. Appreciate your time and love here.

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Holli's avatar

Thank you so much for sharing your story. I started reading this morning and have been coming back to it all day when I’ve had a few minutes here and there. You’ve expressed the heart of Christianity so beautifully and thoroughly, and I have been truly refreshed and encouraged by reading it.

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Tommy Dixon's avatar

Thank you Holli, for the kind words and encouragement here. Means a lot (:

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Enid W.'s avatar

Wow, I’ll need to return to this time and time again. The more I read, the more I recognized the wooing of the Holy Spirit. And I connect all too well with the moments of doubt and tiredness that spring up even after putting your trust in God, and the desire to have everything be neat with low stakes again. The Lord is so very good throughout it all.

Reading this made me grateful for how I can take and take from God, and He’s never diminished by this while I am full. Thank you for sharing!

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Tommy Dixon's avatar

Thank you Enid, for reading and such a beautiful reflection here. "The Lord is so very good throughout it all." Couldn't have said it better.

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Alexa Bilankov's avatar

Stunning piece. Thank you for your vulnerability and care in sharing it. I deeply felt your words and testimony ❤️‍🩹❤️

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Tommy Dixon's avatar

Thank you Alexa (: really appreciate your kind words here

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